Reflect 2018
Before I even begin to address the topic at hand, I have to start off by saying I am posting this no matter how it turns out. I have 7 unpublished blogs that I haven’t finished yet and haven’t looked at since I started them. I am not really in to New Year’s resolutions so let’s just say it’s one of the things I want to work on next year. Tomorrow.
Tomorrow is going to be 2019 and I feel like this year has been a blur. Everywhere I look everyone is talking about what they want out of 2019. I sat down and wrote out some goals for 2019 and some actions that I need to take in order to make them a reality. I don’t know about anyone else but it was really hard for me to write down my goals because my goals scare me. I am scared of the commitment it’s going to take, the sacrifices I am going to have to make and the reality of what my life would be like if those goals came true. It took me 2 days of procrastinating to finally get to writing.
As I was writing my goals I started to develop a profound appreciation for what I have accomplished this year including finding ways to use better words. The year started really low with the death of my goddaughter’s father who was very close with my family. We shared a lot of memories and great times together. It was very unexpected and shed a light on my own depression. Something I never acknowledged before. This got a lot deeper than I intended but its my truth.
This was a catalyst that pushed me past the resistance that I created which kept me from pursuing comedy. I did a lot of things that were so far outside of my comfort zone this year. I never saw myself as an entertainer even though I’ve been one my entire life. Now fast forward to the end of the year and I am trying to get booked everywhere and anywhere.
It wasn’t all comedy this year. I made some strides professionally that I am proud of considering I barely graduated high school. I broke in to a new field of work a few years ago after hitting some lows and to be able to capitalize on this opportunity has been incredibly rewarding. My daughter learned how to poop in a plastic pot that I have to scoop out but at least I don’t have to change diapers anymore. My wife and I went to Disney World with the family. I performed a wedding ceremony for my sister. I packed the house at Gotham Comedy Club and had a great set. I paid off a student loan. I could go on but I really want to wrap this up.
This was only supposed to be a paragraph about how it’s not only important to set goals and plan for the future but its equally important to reflect on what you have accomplished and be proud of it. Its motivation that when you put your mind to something you can accomplish it. It feels really good and for a long time because the longer you work for something the longer the payoff lasts. At least that has been my experience for all that is worth. As always, if you have read this far thank you for giving me your attention. I wish you all the best in 2019. Chase your dreams because it might not be too late but it could be too late.