Accountability Blog - Week 1 - 3/2/2020 - 3/8/2020
Week 1
Monday
Welcome to the Accountability Blog. This will be a weekly blog that I will be posting in the same style as my Social Media Break blog. Daily entries with random thoughts and feelings throughout the day based on keeping me accountable to what I need to do to hit my goals. This is a new approach to keep myself in check and make sure I am disciplined in certain areas of my life. Woke up feeling good. Did my morning routine which consists of a shower, meditation and a journal entry. I will be incorporating stretching before the shower. These are key to starting my day off right and also practices that make me stronger everyday. Starting the carnivore diet today. Just meat. I won’t be talking about this a lot socially because I just want to do it and talk about it later. I will talk about it here because I want to stay on track and stay accountable. Also want to share any changes I go through physically and mentally. Ordered lunch which will consist of 2 burger patties and 2 eggs over medium. Yum. My poor family is going to have to deal with these farts. Good thing I did a little research. I was about to start this diet all wrong. Ok so it’s the end of the night. I had 2 burger patties and 2 eggs from the food truck at work. Not the best meat but it did the job. I went to Walmart at lunch and got some nice burger patties and some ground beef. I had 2 steaks and a burger patty for dinner. I’m stuffed! Very excited about this. Also, I had the meat with me so I couldn’t stop at the gym. I went home and substituted with pushups and curls just to get some work in. I wasn’t able to stick to the plan but I’m satisfied with making an attempt to get some work in.
Tuesday
Work up with a bad headache. Forgot to stretch again but I had physical therapy today so I excused it. I need to remember tomorrow not to go straight in to the shower. I also woke up a little bit late because I was up late editing and uploading a podcast. Putting in that work. I stayed off the video games last night, watched 15 mins of TV and did what I had to do. I didn’t write because I wrote a little bit at work today. My main focus is writing when I get home from shows. Work on those bits and then do them on stage. I didn’t hit a mic last night so that was a fail. I am going to be eating lunch soon which will consist of 1 lb of ground beef and 2 eggs over medium. Delicious. I feel like I want to run through a brick wall because I have a ton of energy and my head still hurts. Enduring is rewarding.
Wednesday
Up front I am writing this on Thursday as I failed to write anything yesterday. I am very proud that was able to stay on track with all of my other goals despite Wednesday being a very tough day. I have a history of isolation when triggered emotionally. I go back to old eating habits and inactivity because I feel like that makes me feel better. That is chasing the instant gratification. That never brought any long term happiness. Only more shame and more regret. Instead, I stayed determined to get the job done and I did it.
Thursday
Woke up feeling like a zombie. I had a T Bone steak and 3 eggs with bacon for lunch yesterday. I didn’t eat anything after that because I was full. 2 days with 10 hrs sleep combined, plus the emotional stress from the day before, chores, kid, gym, errands...I still woke up, got my meditation and writing done and then pushed through a physical therapy session. I was drained! I didn’t think I would be able to keep going with the diet. Then I ate. I ate ground beef I made along with 3 eggs over medium and bacon. I WAS POWERED UP! I felt like someone shoved a lightning bolt up my ass. It’s not almost time to go home and I’m still feeling it. No crash, no food coma, no inflammation! I was so sore yesterday and I’m not today. Really interesting so far. Only dropped a deuce once this week which is my only complaint.
Friday
I failed to write again last night after the open mic. I did not record a good set of new material and didn’t try to write it out either. This is going to be a crucial part of my stand up growth. I did however leave the house when I really didn’t want to so that’s a win. I also stuck to my morning routine of SMW. I woke up with a slight headache that manifested in to a migraine by 10 am. I had to wear sunglasses at work with ear plugs just to make it to lunch so I could sleep in my car. That helped because I wasn’t going home. Too many things to do today & tonight so no time to waste. The grind continues. I went to 2 mics but only got up at one. The other went too long and I had to get home. Still glad I went out because I really wanted to stay home. Not an option.
Saturday
Here we go ladies and gentlemen. The real test! I woke up early and didn’t get off the couch for an hour. But when I did, I got my morning SMW in. That’s a first especially with the kid awake. Worked on some videos and now I’m going to crash a show in Secaucus at Blackjack Mulligans ran by The Unusual Culprits. They are kind enough to let me drop in from time to time. I really want to stay home again because I love being home. Doing nothing is my default program but doing nothing gets me nothing. Ok so I’m doing nothing. Stomach feels like it’s going to open up like Moses parting the Red Sea and I need to cook my dinner. All valid excuses. (Sarcastic). But is what the blog is all about. Accountability, not only in wins but in failures too.
Sunday
As the first week of the AB comes to an end, I have to say that this blog is useful to me in a few ways. It keeps me accountable (even when I want to delete my failures and hide), it gets me to write more and I get to put out more content that hopefully, you can relate to. Now Sunday started out good. I got a lot of work done and stayed on point with the diet...until dinner. I failed to plan ahead and did not defrost any meat. I also didn’t want to go spend any money buying food out so I had some tacos with the fam. I love my wife’s tacos and I was able to share a meal with my loves so really, it’s not the end of the world. I felt fine afterwards. Normally, this kind of setback would derail me and I would’ve started eating uncontrollably. Snacks on snack on snacks because why not? I already messed up so might as well. Then it would bleed in to the next day and so on. This time, after dinner, I just stopped eating. No dessert and no more food. This may seem like such a minuscule detail to harp on but if you know me and my behavior, this is a shift in the right direction. Another tool to keep me on track is my morning routine (Stretch Meditate Write). A thought that has been on my head this week is how the great championship teams reacted to a loss. They always came back with a sense of urgency to get the win. I feel like that’s important to keeping your winning momentum. When you lose, you get right back in the game and chase the win. Now I’m our non athlete lives, how do we get a win? Simple. Go after the easy victory in your challenges. My easy victory comes from my morning routine. It’s a challenge because I don’t want to do it. I wake up and I just want to lay, drink my coffee and scroll social media. That doesn’t get me anywhere. So I challenge myself to be productive with tasks that will improve my overall progress towards my goals and make me feel better in the long term, rather than chase the instant gratification that never lasts. I am looking for long term happiness. Thanks for reading and see ya next week.